http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php This is a discussion forum. en Sun, 05 Feb 2012 07:06:55 GMT vBulletin 60 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/images/newyear/misc/rss.jpg http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=408 Fri, 27 Jan 2012 16:38:30 GMT wished i was to dead to care
as the world i knew begins to fade
it all keeps slipping farther

i don't know why i even bother
can't even look you in the eyes
my pleading cries fell on deaf ears
for that reason i quit trying
who do you turn to when the one you love is the one that makes you bleed

wished i was to dead to cry
only a shell of my former self remains
no one to listen to my protest
my biggest flaw was trusting in you
now you've taken everything from me

you know me better than this
i would have never thought you would turn your back on me ]]> dohcdelsol93 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=408 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=406 Mon, 09 Jan 2012 13:29:52 GMT baby i want to call you
tell you i'm sorry

you don't know how hard it is
just for me to accept we're apart

each time i call you
i hope for an answer
just so i can tell you i love you
baby you set me apart

and maybe you'd let me back into your heart ]]> dohcdelsol93 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=406 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=403 Fri, 06 Jan 2012 14:26:43 GMT where am i to go

when there's nothing else i can do

nothing i can say

there's nothing left to for me to prove

i see your thoughts are different than mine

there's nothing left for me

no room for me to be vested in your life

we're bound by blood and love

there has got to be something else i can do

somethings i just can't let go

i had hoped you were to be the one

and we're still bound by blood and love

from the moment he was born

won't you please just talk to me

it's the least that you could do ]]> dohcdelsol93 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=403 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=398 Sat, 26 Nov 2011 01:11:34 GMT i try to put things back the way they were before

try to right all the wrongs i made

can't seem to hold you like i want to

can't seem to keep you in my arms

baby don't tell me we're doomed

baby i don't know where we wrong

we were the couple all our friends were jealous of

they always said were were so perfect together

they said our love was fate

they said it was meant to be

but none of that is helping us now

i try to make the most of all this sadness

you said i'm too Independent

you say i'm too hard

truth is baby there is nothing on this earth i depend on more than you

i thought i was strong

i thought i needed nothing

i thought my life was perfect

i thought i was happy

then you came into my life

if you are not happiness you are the scale on which it's weighed

i can be many things

but baby i can't be me without you ]]> dohcdelsol93 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=398 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=397 Sat, 26 Nov 2011 01:01:11 GMT there are few places in this world that make me feel warm anymore home is one of the few the friendly smiles familiar places i always... there are few places in this world that make me feel warm anymore

home is one of the few

the friendly smiles

familiar places

i always wish i could stay for more than a few

i feel home when i see the faces that know me from the time before

i feel home when i see all of you

even on the coldest of nights we're gathered on the back porch for a couple of beers and the company of a close few

when i'm home i know there is nothing above

even after a million miles and countless tears

i know there is a place that will welcome me home

i see you, with a welcoming smile

i pray that this place never changes

this is the only place i need

there is no closer place to heaven on earth than chilling with the people i know

i need to feel home

i love my home

all my friends

they live in my heart

there is no end to the strength you guys give me

the will for me to keep moving on

all those nights that i'm all alone

from the farthest corners of the world

my heart is always home

i love each and everyone of you

and there is no place i'd rather be

than be home with all of you

thank you for being the only place i can feel real ]]> dohcdelsol93 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=397 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=385 Fri, 21 Oct 2011 15:29:34 GMT i found ways to help me down every night ways to deal with a life without you whether wrong or right it was a way to pass the time i found ways to help me down every night

ways to deal with a life

without you

whether wrong or right

it was a way to pass the time

so many faces

i can't remember their names

so many dirty things

i wish i could forget

none of them helped me get over you

i closed my eyes and closed myself

now that i think i've found another

i still can't get above the things i still feel for you

like an angel i can still feel you hovering above

everytime i close my eyes i can see your eyes
of blue ]]> dohcdelsol93 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=385 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=384 Wed, 19 Oct 2011 18:45:45 GMT i don't want this to be another passing moment

baby i need this to last

i've searched the past 10 years of my life

looking for something real

searching for something that lasts more than a year or two

tell me this is the love that lasts a lifetime and not a day less

baby when your here in my arms

i want to believe it's true


i want to believe it's meant to be me and you



i hold back when i want to jump right in

baby i'm a scared

i'm scared because i love you

i'm scared because i can't see my life without you

baby this is bigger than anything i've ever felt before

baby it's not puppy love

baby this is not the calm before the storm

this is me on my knees pouring out my heart to you

i've never felt so small

i've never felt so complete

any idea i had of what happiness was before you walked into my life

i've thrown it out the door

baby i'm not so good with words

when your right next to me i have a hard time expressing just how i feel

i hope you know just how much i care

i hope you know just how bad i need to feel you in my arms

i hope you can see it in my eyes

just how much i love you ]]> dohcdelsol93 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=384 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=383 Wed, 12 Oct 2011 20:11:30 GMT you said i was the man you always dreamed of these ears had never heard words so sweet your tender touch could make even the strongest man weak... you said i was the man you always dreamed of
these ears had never heard words so sweet
your tender touch could make even the strongest man weak
even your smile could bring me to my knees

you were so down to earth
you were the girl next door
perfect in each and every way
oh how i love you girl
baby I'd move a mountian just because you wanted to see if i could

how i wish some things would never change
give me a chance to do it over a million different times and the ending is the only thing i wouldn't do the same


now we are here

and who's gonna save us now

in this life we know nothing is meant to last so from the word go we knew even our love was doomed

the darkest day of my life was the day our love took it's dying breath

i've never seen you so angry
I've never felt this empty
your a bitch to me just because you can
i pretend that i don't care because i can't let you go
i pushed you away
when that's the last thing i wanted to do

you say i never cared
baby that couldnt' be further from the true
you say i don't have a heart
baby that's because i gave it to you
baby your love is the only light i've ever seen


you meant the world to me....maybe even more
for you there is nothing i wouldn't do
if only i could have you back right now
i'd give my life this very moment just to spend one more day with you

just to put my arms around you and tell you how much i miss having you in my life

it wasn't a silly little fling
it wasn't puppy love
it wasn't a mistake
you were an angel sent to me from the heavens above


even though my heart has yet to love again
in the true sense of the word
even after all these years i still think of you every day
i'm still thankful my baby
you gave me a chance to be part of something great

the love we shared
it was bigger than you
it was bigger than me

you gave me a chance to experience heaven on earth


i will always miss the time we had together
those were the shortest 2 years i've ever had in my life
and i want to relive them each and every single day

baby i'm sorry for all my wrongs
baby i'm sorry for all the pain that i caused
i hope one day i'll be able to tell you how i've felt all these years
i dream of you far too many nights
i try to make the most of all my sadness
the more i try to heal my wounds the closer my heart needs to be to you

you were the one i always dreamed of
and that's never going to change
thank you for being the very best part of my life

i love you
i miss you ]]> dohcdelsol93 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=383 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=381 Mon, 26 Sep 2011 20:57:32 GMT you know sometimes I feel really really invisible on this board. I send out some pm's and never get a reply and it just makes me feel small and invisible. Even sometimes I'll send out messages on windows live and not get anything back. ]]> jamie http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=381 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=379 Tue, 13 Sep 2011 20:31:24 GMT god thank you for somewhat of a memory

so that i can't for get her

in the days of our youth

and all those sleepless nights

as i braved dark neighborhood streets to sneak in your bedroom window

together we learned how our bodies worked

and i held you so close

closer than anyone could ever get

god damn the the day she left and all the things she said i could never forget

all the days you skipped class

and the promises that we made lying together there in bed

as i opened up a heart in which no body every gets in

i held you so close

and now i can never forget

and i can never look at you again

you said goodbye to me and i became every thing i hated ]]> dohcdelsol93 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=379 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=372 Tue, 28 Jun 2011 00:02:04 GMT we met when our lives were moving at break neck speeds for a moment we convinced ourselves it was meant to be when their closing the bar ... we met when our lives were moving at break neck speeds

for a moment we convinced ourselves it was meant to be

when their closing the bar

and want us to leave

we stumbeled to my place and with slurring speach

made promises we could not keep

at all

when the morning comes

and it's time to leave

no how many times you rehearse that speech

someone's always bound to fall

my heart and my head pull go different ways

now matter how hard i try i cannot start

the revolving door in my heart

it's much easer to accept there was no chance from the start ]]> dohcdelsol93 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=372 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=349 Sat, 05 Mar 2011 19:32:50 GMT thought i'd write some :D

i got completely drunk off my ass yesterday..
i shut my phone off and my mom called the police because i was 2h late from home :/ bullcrap...
next time i'll just answer and get busted then, because you know, my mom'll bust me anyways.. :P

time to play guitar. ]]> Tommittaja http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=349 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=339 Tue, 25 Jan 2011 22:55:46 GMT I want to try and keep a dream journal kinda. Last night I dreamt I was at a Anchorage Aces hockey game with a bunch of family and I think some... I want to try and keep a dream journal kinda.


Last night I dreamt I was at a Anchorage Aces hockey game with a bunch of family and I think some friends. Anyway I got bored at around the 2nd period and I was about to get some food but my mom said wait until the period begins again cause the lines would be shorter. So I think I waited I don't remember. Anyway I ended up walking around the arena and some of the arena was outside and there were dogs wandering around.

So I think I get some food I don't remember but I meet this girl she is like the head of the dogs like she made sure they were healthy and everything was ok and if one got out of hand she'd go and get them. The only thing I can remember about her was that she had a really great smile I think she may have been a red head. Anyway we talked and I remember waking her up because I had to leave and that's when I woke up but I woke up really dizzy and I ended up going back to sleep and actually still kinda dizzy. ]]> jamie http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=339 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=338 Sun, 23 Jan 2011 08:27:25 GMT I don't really get nightmares a whole lot I get them once in awhile. Anyway I remember one when I was a kid not sure how old I was probably around 4 give or take a year. I used to live in a trailer and basically we had 2 halls, In the middle of the trailer we had a living room/kitchen and in the very front was my mom and dads bedroom. The left hall there were 3 rooms and a bathroom.

The right hall there was a room, then kind of a laundry room, then another bathroom and then another room in the back. Anyway my nightmare begins with me running to the washer hiding behind it and I would cuss. Anyway I got really scared and this woman who we called big bertha started to chase me. I guess you could have called her a banshee or atleast my vision of one, She was kind of like half a ghost like she had no feet and she flew and then she had a regular head except it was like bluish if I remember correctly, and red eyes. Anyway she started to chase me and I think I started to run into my mom and dads room cause that's where I slept cause I didn't have a bed of my own.

So that's probably the worst nightmare I've had until probably 2 years ago. I'm not going to go into the other one but it really creeped me out bad. Anyway the last few years I've had this similar nightmare. It doesn't matter what the dream is but it starts out with either a door closing while I'm outside of it or I'm in the room and the door closes.

The last time I had this dream was maybe a month and a half ago and I got it both ways. I was going to go to sleep and the door closed so I turned the knob and eventually I got in where as I opened the door a hockey goalie was inside so I grabbed him and started beating him up. Then not sure what happened I think it was after that I was in the same room and the door closed while I was inside the room I started to freak out and finally got the door open.

It's not scary but it kinda freaks me out sometimes and I get the dreams once in awhile. I think that sometimes the ghost in the house messes with people and that's what he likes to do. I remember the first time I had the nightmare basically I was in high school and I was sitting in a chair and I look in my room and I see this evil kid jumping on my bed and it freaks me out. This was ofcourse all a dream but it felt super real and I've had this dream twice I think.

I think one time I actually had a conversation with it or atleast something. I remember I was sleeping and in my dream I was walking through a forest and talking to somebody anyway my last words to him were don't make me laugh or I'll wake up and I woke up laughing. I did remember the whole conversation I think but not anymore. I probably should have written it down.

The other dream I hated was the falling dream or the falling down the stairs dream, those were the worst. Especially the falling dream because I'd be hundreds of feet in the air and suddenly drop fast almost like skydiving it always made my head hurt when I had those dreams. Like my head would tingle I hope I never have those again.

The door knob dreams suck too but I don't know the doors always open so I guess it's not too bad.

Oh I do remember one dream I had, I didn't really know my family outside of my mom, dad, and sisters. I have a bunch of cousins and aunts and stuff in WV but they could walk up to me and I'd be like uhhh who are you?. this also includes my grandma, well I think either a month before or after she died I had this dream. It involved Freddy Krueger but the weird thing was that I wasn't scared. So he was killing my grandma and I kept yelling to take me on instead, I think I ended up fighting him I don't remember but I woke up.

Actually most of the time when I have a nightmare I get mad really mad I'll absolutely attack whatever tries to hurt me sometimes though I feel like really weak like I can't do anything no matter what I do and I hate that feeling. Anyway I don't know ]]> jamie http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=338 http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=336 Fri, 14 Jan 2011 21:38:36 GMT blabbityblahblah blabbityblahblah ]]> jamie http://www.thelordoftheboards.com/forum/blog.php?b=336